Soooo I am 5 weeks pregnant. I am afraid to even say it out loud. I really want a baby. This baby.
Having a miscarriage is a hard thing. To me I really felt like it was a consequence of the Fall. I am a human being and this experience and the heart ache it has brought me really connects me to this Telestial Earth. The grief I have experienced is so much different that the grief my husband's actions brought.
I know that although the pain is different the solution is the same. The Atonement of Jesus Christ can fill both holes in my heart.
I can't decide if I am jaded or just lack faith. I tend to be a pessimist. It drives my husband crazy. I am having a hard time getting too excited for this baby. I guess it is to be expected. My doctor promised as much. I know that it is in the Lord's hands. All I can do is all I can do.
Here's to hoping for a happy ending this time around...
M
